Author’s note- This is as much a message to myself as it is to you. I am not trying to impose anything upon anyone, but just portraying a simple suggestion based on my perception of life.
It saddens me to think that there is no one in the world to care for me enough, especially not the ones I want to care for me. The ones I like or love, never fucking even acknowledge my existence and it simply doesn’t matter to them whatever the hell happens to me or not. There is a small bunch of people who think they care about me but the truth is, that is momentary. Even your own parents (and here I am NOT demeaning them and I love them as they love me, but that’s not the point). Everyone has to carry on with their own goddamn lives and ultimately it all comes down to us and it is the most painful revelation when you realize that no matter what or whom you want to have in your life, you can and are bound to enjoy the presence of one person next to you who is also your constant companion and that is you, yourself. There can never be another person in your life who will be as attached to you as you are to yourself. It is just implausible and painful to hope for otherwise, not even our parents, no matter how bitter the truth sounds. We are all individuals meant to control our own shit individually. It becomes a mess if you want to include other people into your lives because it can never be otherwise and everyone has been bestowed with that ultimatum to bask in their own individual problems. And dare not compare your situation to anyone else’s to make yourself feel better or to pity upon yourself, because just as we are all individuals unique in our own ways, our problems are too and there can never be any parameters to make comparisons because that is plain wrong. And never friggin hope for the presence of another individual in your life because that can only inflict boundless pain and complexities, nothing for the better, all for the worse. Try to be as content with yourself under all kinds of circumstances and TRY to deviate from any stupid decisions, you know what I mean, because that is not a very wise option. And I should also mention that we are all suicidal beings trying to console others like us to prevent anymore damage to the mankind. But please do try to spend time with yourself and yourself alone. Because that is as much a part of yourself as it is like another individual, the one you crave the presence of. When you find the right path you’ll realise that the person you’ve been searching for all along is already there, present in your heart, in your soul. Listen to yourself. Be your own friend. And try to steer clear of things that has the ability to make you sad. Don’t give anyone or anybody the opportunity to make you sad and try to strengthen your being because when you lose your soulmate, your pet or the one you thought were yours, you’ll have yourself to accompany… till it’s your turn and the ultimate juggernaut of mortality summons you. Love yourself as you are a gift to yourself. You may or may not know it, but trust me on this- YOU ARE SPECIAL. To yourself, and that’s all that counts. You don’t need the validation of your being, of your love, of your happiness from someone else or something else because that can only induce pain at one or the other point. Be yourself and enjoy life because you’ve got only one. We ALL are emotionally and/or physically damaged and to live with it with a cheerful heart without faking it is the ultimate triumph. You just have to find happiness as no one can bring it for you- it just doesn’t work the way we think. It needs a bit of working out and I know you will. You all will. We all will be happy one day, as it comes from within and we all have the ability to create it or find it within ourselves. And when you’ll be able to find that orgasmic moment, you’ll realize that your life has been worth living for, regardless.
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